Seasons

I recall how my chemistry teacher used to tell us how she loved to smell her son's shirts whenever he wasn't in town. And we all laughed and some called her a psycho.

But I guess now I am in the season to understand this love...

This maternal love that enjoys watching her little one sleep, enjoys folding his clothes and marveling at how much he has grown over the years.

This maternal love is also in the season of understanding how mothers can love deeply even the children they have lost from the start, and coming to empathise with the hope in the LORD that all these women stand upon.

I feel like I have come to understand so many things through this one loss, that I believe will not happen ever again to us... I know that the LORD has taken this sorrow and turned it around into rejoicing and to bless our walk as a married couple, as a family.

I can see how K appreciates us even more after this loss... perhaps from grieving along with us in his little 8 yr old way that was full of hope in Jesus, as opposed to despair.

Selah.

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I understand this much better now...

Philippians 4:7 (MSG)- "Before you know it, a sense of GOD'S WHOLENESS, EVERYTHING COMING TOGETHER FOR GOOD, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when CHRIST DISPLACES WORRY at the center of your life."


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A testimony from a Hillsong Worship Leader who suffered loss of a child

"But I know that my circumstance and this season doesn't change that God is still God. That it doesn't change what He has called me to be here and has called me to do. And He still sits on the throne and He still rules and He is still bigger than anything I am facing."

"Her standing there and glorifying God in the midst of her loss and tragedy meant that the Devil lost kind of what he was trying to achieve."

"When I am in the fire, and when I am being refined, and when I am in a battle, and when the triumph isn't here but it's coming... I think that you look at God and you say I know this is Who You are and He does get bigger in your life and it takes over the things in you that feels so shattered and it makes Him the focus and it begins to put those things together."


Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

Monday thoughts on a rainy afternoon

It has been 5 days since we found out Baby's in Heaven. It has been 3 days since the doctor washed my womb. But not a minute has passed that i rejoice that baby is with Abba Daddy God and save in Jesus's arms. Not a minute has passed by that I have not missed the little one.

Although we didn't get to hold him or her in our arms, baby was still a blessing. Our little one has only grown our family of 3 closer and taught us to stand firmly on His Word of truth in Jer 29:11 over us. I may not understand everything that has transpired, but I know one thing- Daddy God loves us so very much and Jesus will only give us the best.

On Sunday, reading the lyrics of "Glory Baby" moved me so much and I cried. I really cried from the depths of my heart. And in my tears, I saw the reflection of my hubby's sadness too. But we know from our sadness will come great rejoicing because the LORD will not fail us. He is good all the time and faithful to His promises.

So we await our promised baby (or 2 or 3 or 4!!) whom we will cuddle, sing to bed and tell about the love of Jesus.

He is faithful to bless my womb and make it fruitful. Amen.

Watermark - glory baby

(Thanks Shaun for sharing this...)

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little baby, it’s hard to
understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

BRIDGE:
I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…

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A day or two before the gynae appointment, I had a dream where I got to hear our baby's heartbeat but it didn't sound like the throbbing heartbeat of a baby... it sounded like beautiful chimes playing. It was such a peaceful tinkling of notes. I wonder if it was the Holy Spirit's way of telling me about our baby.

I will rest in knowing heaven in baby's home. - How true. =)

Comfort from Oz

I spoke to Yuning who called from Australia last night and am feeling less nervous about my D&C procedure in an hour or so. She explained what will take place and also reassured me about our gynae. It was good to hear her voice again. It's been so long. Really miss her.

Coming to terms

Baby didn't make it.

We went for the scan yesterday with K and the baby didn't grow. Neither did it have a heartbeat. It was hard news to hear and it was harder to explain to K but he was really sweet about it. He held my hands and hugged me when I cried. Ian took the news calmly and is being optimistic for the both of us. I have been a puddle of tears although it is well within my soul.

I do miss the baby already. When it is quiet, I miss baby most. It is hard not to cry. My tear ducts are overflowing... But I rest assured that what the devil robs us of, GOD will restore many folds.

Seeing the outpouring of love and concern moves me, but replying them takes strength and I am glad I can find it in Him.

It will be a little while more before we can give K a sibling. But we know we will- & always in His perfect time.

Tomorrow I will be going for womb washing and a part of me hopes for the impossible- a miracle of life. A Lazarus situation.

I rest in Him for now.

033 Kor Kor bear prays

Kae's prayer over his sibling this night- "I pray that baby will be intelligent, wise, healthy and strong. That baby will be courageous and full of kindness. That baby will be filled with the love of God and understand His love too. This we pray in Jesus's name. Amen!"


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032 Redeemed means redeemed

Christ was hung on a tree and made accursed in our place so that today we are redeemed of every single curse laid upon us because we live in a fallen world.

When Jesus cried out. IT IA FINISHED, there is left a choice for us to make- to believe that His Word is the truth, that He has indeed finished off all weapon that tries to come against us past, present and future... OR we can believe otherwise and agree with the world that we haven't been redeemed yet.

I was reading Deut28 again and seeing all the blessings He has won for me and all the curses He has borne for me so that today I am truly redeemed. I couldn't help but feel so blessed to be able to stand on His Promises for me because I am the righteousness of Christ and heir o the blessings of Abraham.

I am the redeemed, and redeemed I remain. Amen!

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031 One more day to the next Gynae Appointment =D

Well, we are about 25 hrs away from the next Gynae appointment, baby, and boy am I excited! =D

Guess who are tagging along with us? Only your grandpa, Daddy and Korkor hahaha! 3 Generations of men.

I am currently contemplating the names:

Sophia Giana/Chanya Wee En Xi (Wisdom and Grace, Grace and Joy... trying to decide between the middle names.)

OR

Jozef Noah Wee Zhong Shun (Rest and Increase, Loyalty and Success)

(Reminding self that Kae needs to get his BC name fixed in time to come because his hanyu pinyin is wrong and the SG govt not flexi enough to let me add the "h" in to rectify it. Must get title deed and go through lawyer again wan lor. Sianz.)

Anyway, we are all very excited to see tomorrow's scan and to know the EDD. =))

030 Wigglesworth- such life in his writing!

I have been trying to read more edifying articles and writing these days. After the initial spotting scare, I have seen how dangerous it gets filling ur mind with the words of this world.

It was very apt that the Sunday after my Friday spotting, Padtor Prince spoke about meditating on the Word of God. Sometimes, it's not that we dunno what is needful for us to do, but that we need a nudge and a reminder in the right direction.

So I picked up my fav Wigglesworth book ("Smith Wigglesworth- The Complete Collection of his Life Teachings") to read; his testimony, childlike faith, as well as the hope in his writing really encourages one and directs one's gaze back to the victory of Jesus's finished work on the Cross.

"Oh, when God begins to move, everything is soon in order."

"Jesus says, 'In Me there shall be peace,' and there is no peace where there is disease, so if you get His peace, you will be free from disease! 'In the world-- tribulation; but in Me, peace!' "

How wonderful is the promise of SHALOM wholeness, health, peace, prosperity we have on Christ!! We already have it and walk out this shalom in every area of our lives! Baby & I have His Shalom wholeness and are "as strong as a wild ox & anointed with the finest oil." (Ps 92:10) It is written and so it is with us! ;D

AMEN!! :))



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029 Halia Halia

I love a good Teh Halia (Ginger Milk Tea) but am trying to avoid caffeine for now. So at breakfast today, I had Milo Halia.

Milo is a chocolate beverage and they added the Ginger powder in the drink. Loved it lots.

I also had Hot Fudge Sundae from Mak dong dong (Mcdonalds in Hongkie speak) which made me uber happy. :) Coupled with Chili shaker fries- I'm a happy mummy. ;D

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028 Burn the Bras

No. I am not a Feminist with a bonfire ready to set bras ablaze. It's just that my breasts have been super sore. I wore a bandeau bra today which had no underwire but it didn't help at all. T.T

The feeling reminds me of the engorgement experience from the ol' breastfeeding Kae days when he was a baby. ^.^""

Was looking at the Marks n Spencers maternity brassieres earlier- beautiful, well-supportive and well-cut. But of coz... $$$. :p The China ones are cheaper but their design/cutting left my boobs looking bumpy lumpy.

Haha. Aiya. Anyway only the hubby is supposed to admire my bosom. Lol. Doubt he minds lor. Hahaha. :D

So if u are reading this n wondering what I would like for 19th April ( aka me bday)... Maternity bra pack (2 per pack) from M&S would be nice... Or juz M&S vouchers. Lol. ^.^!

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027 Bloaty

It is said that cows contribute one of the most amounts of Methane to the atmosphere, encouraging global warming. Well, at the rate I've been experiencing gas, I might be turning into an honorary member of the cow Com-moo-nity.

Today I look less preggers than yesterday becoz I just let go enough methane to expand the hole in the ozone layer that much more. It is baffling how much gas is stored in one pregnant woman.

I do feel much better after my
bloatedness went with the wind. I wonder how cows handle it. Oh yes... By letting go.

Oh well, gonna go chew on The Word and breakfast to feed my inner man, the baby & me. ;)

JOYFUL
SUNDAY!
:D

026 Korkor bear's hope for the baby

Kae laid hands on my baby bump and spoke over his sibling- "Baby, be a good baby, toddler, child, pre-teen, teen, adult and grandparent, ok? Amen." ( Talk about covering all bases. ROFLMAO!!)


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025 One hour feels really, really long... ^.^"

When I have work, I miss my rest.

When I have rest (esp now when no one is at home), I feel like the world's spinning along without me running in my little hamster wheel.

It's weird I know. =p

I enjoy resting and I praise God that our little family will always experience restful increase in every area of our lives. HALLELUJAH!

I did some cleaning yesterday but it gets really tiring. Esp since I cannot stoop as easily as last time. I really want to go swim but I am not sure if I can. Gotta ask our Doc. =)

Should have not put on so much weight prior to the pregnancy hahaha. ^.^""

Well, some good news- Hubby will be able to go to our gynae scan on the 24th! Hurrah! He is getting his colleague to go to HK in his stead. =)))

Rejoice, rejoice! =D

I will still bring Kae along with us. I know he has been very excited recently. =) He has actually been reading up on babies and foetal growth. Lol!

Just counting down the days to the next appointment. Just six more days!! =D

Thanking God that His blessings always bring with them no sorrows, no pain. My GOD is an awesome GOD! =D

023 Expensive water

Our Awesome Daddy God sent Angels to protect Ian's eyes. Hubby got me a glass of water earlier on and was lying down when he hit the edge of the glass quite hard. Although the glass wasn't chipped, it left a cut on the side of his eye, missing his eye by a cm or two. . He needs both eyes for his work- stereoscopic film production. And he is going for a HK talk soon too. The water is expensive water bcoz hubby got hurt for it. Thank u Jesus for Ian and for protecting Ian. Our family is blessed and covered by the most precious blood of Christ!! AMEN!!

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022 Verses abt dustiness

Dust in the bible rept many things. One of them is that of worldly or fleshly ideals n living.

When I talk about shaking off the dust, I dun mean that it always means itz about ppl rejecting u ina place (I wasnt rejected at yhe forum), but rather abt shaking off dust from a place where the world's philosophies are being held above what God promises us in Christ, OR shaking off fleshly thoughts that discourage & stumble by embracing and speaking the edifying Word of Christ. :)

"So they shook the dust from their feet as a sign of rejection and went to the town of Iconium (where they encouraged other believers). And the believers were filled with joy and with the Holy Spirit." Acts13:51-52

"If a place will not welcome you or listen to you, as you go out from there, shake the dust off your feet...” Mark 6:12

021 Dangers of the Dusty Forums

Don't let anyone capture you with empty philosophies and high-sounding nonsense that come from human thinking and from the spiritual powers of this world, rather than from Christ.
- Col2:8 NLT

Although it is nice to speak to similarly pregnant mummies on the Forum, it was very hard to avoid reading the philosophies of this world that is centred on fear, trying to fortune tell (IMHO tying to count rice to determine gender may sound like harmless fun but it is superstitious & is a form of fortune telling or divination).

I was juz telling Andrea that it was becoming a place where women go to speak fear into each other. And interestingly, hours later I checked my inbox to see an email from a new friend I made there, and she was talking about how she was going to avoid the forums because of the anxiety it brought about from reading some of the posts.

For me, it felt like an affirmation of what I felt about the forum and a reminder of Col2:8. In fact, I realised perhaps the fear talk there led to my bleeding earlier on. Of course, that door of attack is now firmly shut and sealed by the blood of Christ.

I love meditating on this verse from Psalms- I am as strong as a wild ox and anointed with the finest oil! :)) I am as STRONG as a wild ox--- Jesus is my strength!! It is not about my strength. It is about His strength. As He is in this world, so am I. The joy of the LORD is my strength. I remain in His joy!! I am anointed with the FINEST OIL- the anointing oil of the LORD. I am anointed by the HOLY SPIRIT who teaches me all things. I fear not for I know He is with me! Hallelujah! I have the mind of Christ!

I love meditating on the Word of the LORD! It brings so much strength, hope and joy to my heart in the midst of all the discouragement and bad news the world likes to try to heap onto us like dust. The Word says to shake off the dust and move on. So I am. Everytime I encounter Jesus on His Word, He sweeps the dust of this world off me. :)

Nohing compares to You, LORD! :D


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020 Sympathetic pregnancy ala Hubby :)

Whilst I have blissfully been without any particular craving or Morning Sickness, my dearest Hubby has been experiencing a a change in appetite lately. And just now, this most amusing dialogue transpired between us as we headed out for bites.

G: I dunno why but I get really hungry at night these days.

I: Oh ya. Just now when u were putting Kae to sleep, I felt like puking.

ROFLMAO! I couldn't stop lol-ing- my jaw aches from giggling away. XD Hubby kept grinning.

Sympathetic pregnancy? Hmm... ;)


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019 Belated post on 1st gynae visit to Dr SF Loh

Well, it's a brand new morning and one more day closer to the next gynae appointment.

Dr. SF Loh was a real delight to meet. He was polite, very nice, positive and friendly as well as patient to answer our queries- never rushing us.

In comparison to the gynae who delivered Kae, this guy is an angel. :)

I was given more progestrone and folic acid and asked to rest more. He also kindly looked at all my vitamins and approved them. Yay!

018 Hungrimummi

Kae was talking to the baby when my tummy growled just about then. :D Told him that was my stomach talking, not the baby. Lol.

Keep feeling peckish, sleepy and the need to pee. :)

Gonna buy me some snacks tomorrow. ;) In case of night peckishness...


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017 Flutter of love

Today we got to see our little one fluttering with life. :) We got to see his/her heartbeat & baby is just this adorable little bump right now but I know he/she is going to be a strong little warrior for Christ. ;)

Thank You, Daddy God. :)

We will see our gynae, Dr. Loh, again on 24th March 2010. ;D


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016 Today is the day - my morning praise song

Very joyful , edifying song. Will chase the blues n anxieties away as you sing it! :D

Heard it in church the Sunday we discovered I am pregnant. :)

TODAY IS THE DAY
- Lincoln Brewster

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngHP6ppfRw4&feature=youtube_gdata

I'm casting my cares aside
I'm leaving my past behind
I'm setting my heart and mind on You Jesus
I'm reaching my hand to Yours
Believing there's so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm trusting in what You say
Today is the day

I'm putting my fears aside
I'm leaving my doubts behind
I'm giving my hopes and dreams to You Jesus
I'm reaching my hands to Yours
Believing there's so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm giving You my fears and sorrows
Where you lead me I will follow
I'm trusting in what You say
Today is the day

I will stand upon your truth
All my days I'll live for You
I will stand upon your truth
All my days I'll live for You
All my days I'll live

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm giving You my fears and sorrows
Where you lead me I will follow
I'm trusting in what You say
Today is the day









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015 Morning Prayer ;)

I know I have been called out of darkness to proclaim Your praises; so I proclaim them this day and say all praise be to You, O LORD of Heaven and Earth.

LORD, You are the light of my life. You illuminate my path and I follow whatever You lead.

LORD, thank You for saving me and setting me free from ALL that would keep me from moving into ALL that You have for me.

As You are in this world, LORD, so am I. :) I am more than an conqueror in Christ. I overcome becoz You have overcome for me.

AMEN!

014 Olivia Lum's fav bible verses

Hyflux's Olivia Lum's fav "bullet" verses that she's held on over the years from the bible:

* Blessed are those who have not seen but believe.

AND

* I will give you life and life more abundantly!!

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I haven't seen the latest scan yet but I blv my womb is right now prospering and that Christ has blessed it with life & life more abundantly!!!

AMEN!!!!!

Olivia- ur childlike faith is soooooooooooo inspiring!!

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013 Kae describes us in 4 words each

Mummy: Loving, blessed, beautiful, helpful.

Daddy: Responsible, helpful, funny, loving.








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012 No Pangs for Me

Pro 10:22 The blessing of the LORD, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorrow with it.

Sorrow in Hebrew =

עצב

Pronunciation
`etseb

From 6087; an earthen vessel; usually (painful) toil; also a PANG (whether of body or mind):--grievous, idol, labor, sorrow.

Definitions:

pang [pang]
-noun
1. a sudden feeling of mental or emotional distress or longing.

2. a sudden, brief, sharp pain or physical sensation; spasm.


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011 Missing his mummy

Being on bed rest means Ian takes K to school every morning n little tyke is beginning to miss me. Was all teary. Awww...

He spent the weekend with my parents n Ian n Ian's family. Guess he missed cuddling up to me.

Close to 3 yrs of breast feeding and working from home = close bond.

He loves his daddy (a lot) but mummy is his snuggly go to to tell knock knock jokes and to get his kisses n hugs. :)



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010 Promises of the LORD in Exo23

Conditions already paid for by Christ. We are legally able to receive these miracles by His shed blood and becoz of our salvation in Him. :)

MIRACLE 1: Angelic intervention in your life (See Exodus 23:20.)

MIRACLE 2: Supernatural guidance (See Exodus 23:20.)

MIRACLE 3: Destruction of your adversaries (See Exodus 23:22.)

MIRACLE 4: Miraculous financial breakthroughs (See Exodus 23:25.)

MIRACLE 5: Divine healing and health (See Exodus 23:25.)

MIRACLE 6: Increased territory (See Exodus 23:30.)

MIRACLE 7: Possession of your Promised Land (See Exodus 23:30.)

MIRACLE 8: Enemies driven out of your life (See Exodus 23:31.)

MIRACLE 9: A return of what Satan has stolen from you (See Exodus 23:31.)

MIRACLE 10: Debt-cancellation (See II Kings 4:1-7.)

009 Faith, eggs & 1 basket

Love this- Faith is putting all your eggs in God's basket, then counting your blessings before they hatch.

I am putting all my eggs (literally) in God's hand and I know I can count my blessings before the little ones arrive. Their 9 month journey is blessed from before the word, GO; Itz not dependent on me, but fully established upon His Truth, upon The Word which opened His arms on the Cross so we can have LIFE n life more abundantly. AMEN!!

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008 Battle cry

I know the LORD's plan for me- to bless me, to give me hope and an expected end (ie VICTORY). :D

My battles belong to the LORD and He cried out "It is FINISHED!"

HALLELUJAH! :)

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007 Spotting ceases

The spotting has stopped and I am learning to not let fear be my knee jerk reaction, but to let faith be my respond to any scare tactic and obstacle. Bed resting until next scan. The LORD has promised great things in Exo 23- none shall be barren nor miscarry. Standing on His promises beco they are TRUTH. Amen!!!!


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006 Spotting

We had a scare last night. I had spotting.

Hubby brought me to KKH and we had a scan done n doc said baby not yet visible but the baby sac is there. He said he will give me meds n asked me to rest. The Pharmacist recommended strict bed rest until when I meet my gynae, Dr Loh, on Wed. He will scan me again. I believe the
Baby is fine. It doesn't matter how I feel, it all falls back to His Word n His truth n His grace. JESUS I trust in u.

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004- Pee Pee Pee

I need to go to the toilet so often it is not funny. Lol. I go pee, come back to the Mac, type a couple of things out and not long after, I find myself in the room in the home with the best acoustics. If camels store water, I seem to be the opposite of the camel. ^.^"

I had a meeting earlier and praise the LORD, the client's really nice and understanding, as well as concerned about tiring me out during my pregnancy, gamdong (touched) man. I REALLY WANT TO DO MUCH BETTER. Realizing I need to hold my writings with a loose hand though because when I try too hard, I depend on me instead of Him and instead of a restful increase, I feel like it is a traffic jam with no progress being made.

Have made new friends on the Singapore Motherhood forum and it is a relief to know that I am not the only repeat mother who feels like the tum is larger than it was the first time round. Haha.

I read with curiosity sharings on cravings and all tho' coz I didn't experience it when I had Kae, I don't seem to be experiencing it right now with Wee Babe #2. Can anyone enlighten me on what it is supposed to feel like? Is it a "IF I DUN EAT (fill in the blanks) THIS NOW, I WILL DIE... FEED MEEEEEE! GROWL!" thing? ^.^

I honestly don't get the craving thing lah.

Praise GOD that I have no MS thus far and I hope I won't have MS at all. =) A friend on the forums is experiencing NS- night sickness. Was tickled because having kids seems to be the female way of doing "National Service" so the abbvn is very apt. Haha.

I need to stop here for now because I am having this terrible urge to PEE. But before I go, just to show Kae's thought for his sibling tonight- "Baby I know you will do well in your studies like Korkor." Lol. I dun think Kae is trying to demand A* from his sibling, but that he is believing that his sibling will enjoy a flow in his studies as opposed to a blockage... that his sibling will not have to struggle with his studies. =) Speaking good over his sibling mah. =D

Ok... pee pee pee... I need to pee. (ZOOMS OFF!)

003- Kae-isms

Sunday 280210:
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- Mummy dun lie on your tummy or you'll squash the babies!

- Mummy, should'nt you eat softer food so that the baby can digest better? Like xiao wan mian?


Monday 010310:
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- Daddy, are you going to become the father of 2 or 3 children?


Tuesday 020310:
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- (K covers me with his blanket during bedtime story session) So the baby won't feel cold.

- (to the stomach) Didi or meimei, Daddy, Mummy and Korkor Kaelen loves you very much.

002- Cod...delicious cod.

Wow. I can feel my hormones kicking in. Lol. Breasts are more tender to the touch and feeling a little bloated up.

Also feeling a little overwhelmed by my emotions and kinda let it get out of hand yesterday evening when I was talking to Mum. Long story but the gist is that we were both tired and we had a misunderstanding. I took the first step to clarify and make peace today. It opened up room for dialogue as we emailed each other (seems to be the best way to communicate so far because we actually read each other's comments before replying) and I hope that our relationship can grow stronger and brighter over time. I love her and I know she loves us, but we miscomm a lot. Grace, grace.

(Update: Mum came by for dinner and things are going much better btw us. How great is our God! Praise Jesus!)

And I am also beginning to understand why I feel warmer than the norm the last coupla weeks. Gosh. And the weather in Singapore is currently scorching as it is. ^.^" I refuse to chop off my hair like I did with Kae. I really hated my short crop of hair then.

I am feeling really bloated and a more tired & it is affecting my writing actually. My energy level dipped so low. I meant to take a 30min power nap in the afternoon (around 1.40 or so), didnt hear my alarm and woke at 5 plus in the evening. Sighs. I don't want to stay up late to write but I also have to hand in my work tomorrow. ^.^" Jesus, HELP! =)

Dad made Cod for dinner tonight. Delicious. He seasoned it with Japanese Soya Sauce and Seaweed. Yum! I had tons of Cod whilst expecting Kae too. Cod's prob my favourite fish. I like Salmon too but I only like it when it is raw salmon, not so much cooked salmon. The good thing is that Kae is eating Cod too because I am eating Cod. He is willing to try it out and he seems to be ok with it. Phew! =)

Early morning meeting tomorrow. Eeps. I better stop here and go finish up my work. I am just so sleepy. Wanna curl up and hibernate. ^.^

001- Announcing the Baby-to-be =)

Good news- We are expecting a second child late this year =D And this blog is to journal our walk as a family and my thoughts on being a second time mum for the next 8 months or so.

We found out about our baby-to-be on the evening of this year's Chup Gor Meh (last day of the Lunar New Year). Just that afternoon, my Aunt spoke over us, "Zhao Sheng Gui Zi!" as we tossed the Yu Sheng high up into the air. Ian and I was just sharing that we were ready to welcome an addition to our little family of 3.

On our way to Suntec City for our Sunday Service, I felt led to get a pregnancy test kit. I got a regular one from Guardian for $8.10. It didn't take long for the two lines to appear clearly in the window. Thrilled, I messaged Ian who was in the MPH bookstore with Kae that I was pregnant. I attached a photo of the test kit. Ian told me it was good that I explained what the picture meant because he had no idea what the result was just by looking at the test kit. Lol.

When I joined him he was really happy and I also broke the news to Kae by whispering in his ear. The little one's face broke into a huge grin. =D

We went for service and I felt so emotional and praise-filled for this wonderful blessing. Ian and I decided to confirm it with a second test before informing our folks, so I bought another kit from Guardian- this time, one that could actually tell how far along I am.

As he fed Kae dinner, I did the test. It confirmed the pregnancy and it also stated that I was more than 3 weeks along. Immediately, I called our parents and loved ones to inform them. =)

When we got home, I downloaded a pregnancy calculator and it is estimated that baby is about
currently about 5 odd weeks along. ^.^

Kae and Ian are both really excited about the baby. Kae is thrilled at the prospect of being a kor kor and Ian is really excited about welcoming an addition to our little family of 3.

Being an only child, this is such a wonderful thing for me as Kae won't be alone and we will have one more little one to share our love and our lives with.

Gonna blog about the pregnancy here. I know I already have a blog that journals my Christian walk, but I wanted to specifically have a Pregnancy Journal for this little one. In fact, now with services that can actually PRINT out blogs from Blogger for keeps, it was clear which service I would employ for this purpose. =) Sorry Tumblr...

(To be fair, I kept an online journal for Kae too, but Geocities shut down, so I lost that website. =p)

I have thought of names for the little one already-

If the baby is a girl, we might name her Sophia (wisdom) Chanya (grace; pronounced as Hannah) Wee, Huang En Xi (Grace and Joy).

If the baby is a boy, we might name him Zeke (pronounced as Ze-Key; short for Ezekiel) Elisha Wee, Huang Zhong Shun (Loyal and Successful).

Any other suggestions? If it is a boy, I want to give him a similar first Chinese character as Kae. It is also sort of a tribute to my eldest cousin (Zachary or Zac), whom I look up to a lot as a kid and who introduced me to my passion for books. =D Zeke is pronounced differently and is derived from Ezekiel instead of Zechariah, but I figure that when I call out to our son I can just go Z; it's like how I call Kaelen, K. Short and sweet haha.